(guilt)
Saturday, September 6, 2008, 2:31 AM
i did sumting so bad, my guilt aint leaving me alone.
aiyi bh, im so sorry that i couldnt control my anger. ive never been so harsh to someone after fighting with alif in form 1. (seriously, i kept on shouting at him in front of the class, in front of miss enny + unstoppable tears + cursing; pi, sikla terok. plg trok pun me nganok org dolok bodo jak, yeapun dah kira trok)
kmk asa kmk ter-ada
temporary insanity.
wahhhhhhhhhh. never i did sumting like dat to someone whom i respect. mun ng kwn2 ompuan yea laenlh. pi, asanya sekda i did such thing.
it was ur fault too! kesian bh naim that tyme. dahla bdn kechik, nya bwk gyk beg skul nok besar dr bdn nya, bwk gyk bag laptop, pasyea ada gyk cgek bag di tgn.
kmk tanyak jak
for you to help him, i knew that u heard wat i said. the part which u just nangga pat laen,
pissed me off. wat did i do dat made me deserve this cold treatment from you? ive asked
politely wat did i have done wrong.
and all you said is that you are tired.
you dont know how restless i am after pushing you. for god sake, you almost fell down.
mok terusuk ng meja cekgu jak upa.
im so so sorry. how long gyk are you going to ignore me? padah la apahal, tok sik, so suddenly with the silence.
i kept on thinking wat one earth did i do wrong.
fyi,
i cant read between the lines. seriously.
im so sorry.
i wanted to say im sorry kat ktk, p, for sure
you wouldnt want to listen. so, im posting this post for the whole world to know.
that im begging for forgiveness.
