(l.i.f.e)
Saturday, September 27, 2008, 7:02 AM
lots of things going on with my life lately.
i think the world's moving too fast.
sometimes, we forgot something or someone, somewhat somehow.
for instance, today. becos we're going back to mukah, ayah told me to burn some songs.
i couldnt be
happier to do so.
so, i double-clicked wmp. searching for songs.
one song caught my eyes. Westlife - You Raise Me Up. at first, i tot it was such an old song. when i think and think again, maybe it would be great to listen to the song on our way to mukah.
i scrolled to the right. mok nangga which folder the lagu bh.
when i saw the location of the song,
i din even blink.lagu yea lam folder zaid. life's too hectic, i almost forgotten about the two of you. i dont know why, i dont know how, i cried.
for God sake, when i checked your folder again zaid, there's this one folder full of songs, last songs you gave me. bukan yea jak, you named that folder, specially for me.
Dear God, tell me why? why did you take the two ppl who are so dearly to us. so kind, understanding, nice to talk to, caring, you name it, they had everything.
TELL ME WHY?
i vividly remember the last raya we had together. now, we arent celebrating it together anymore. Dear God, i know i must turn to You. but i need to talk to someone. someone who actually cared. someone who is actually there. someone who could make me feel comfortable.
Dear God, i know someday i would leave this world. and return to You. You and only You.
org slalu ckp, tok dugaan jak. stay strong.
if you were in our place, to lose someone yg kta nangga dr kol 6.30 pg sampey 1.30/2.10/3.30/4.30 ptg, 5 hari dalam seminggu, 6 hari dalam seminggu mun ada skolah ganti, someone yang slalu ada dgn kta, ketawa sama2, share secrets with, play with, be with, teman ke kantin, jalan ke ko-op, nantik sama2 di pondok, how would you feel?
if they left because of natural causes, maybe
it wouldnt hurt so much. this is different.
you know kan, i pretended that the two of you tgh having a very long holidae. sometimes, mcm hal iptc yea, tyme i was chosen, my heart was searching for areef. i actually walked to our old block. with that stupid face searching for someone who's long gone.
thank goodness i realised everything before i actually asked someone if they saw you anywhere.
lately, i keep most things to myself.
the happy things, i'll share with people. people kol me emo. am i? im not sure.
p/s tho we are no longer together, the memories we shared, i would try my best, not to forget it. The yesterdays, the days we spent together, no one could take it away from us.
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They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday.
