secret no more

u broke my heart twice

2010-02-09T02:39:00.000-08:00

well, i guess it is okay for me to tell the whole wide world, how i feel inside

cos nobodys checking my blog anymore

im so sorry i made u felt like im a total idiot of whom u needed to stay away from

i saw u drove today

"damn" was the first word came up in my mind

i tot being free from ever stepping back to the place called school wud avoid me from seeing u

actually, i really wanted to see you

to see your smile, hear ur voice and i was lucky enuff to actually heard u laugh, ONCE

i really really missed you oh-so-much

its not like i hv THT kind of feeling towards you

its bcos ure tht one friend of mine tht i cud actually tell u evrything and anything

ure cold

ure cruel

weve went tru dis countless tymes

okay.., maybe a couple

howevr, we ended up okay, rite?

ppl just change ha?

i hoped u just stay the same

i hate you for making me miserable

but im grateful tht i actually met you

u took the burden i bear away from me

i miss you, very2 much

ure my friend

my precious

.r.an.d.om.

2008-12-24T08:43:00.000-08:00

erkkk, according to chalz, dh 2 bulan x update menatang tok..

dah diriku ini berpenyakit M kn? malas bhhh. byk hal dah jadi juak

best ng x best. byk experience dptlh tyme sblom cuti n tgh cuti tok.

ive got lotsa pics to show, p, *mala jak ada prob eyy, huhu* x jumpa cable tpon.

nyusah da jak tpon xda memory card. ngekkk.

so, im going to tell ppl, wat happened today.

ppl are very random.

for example:

ari tok tek, me teman-ed *my english is getting worse* my mum and nenek g bank.

however, i stayed in the car with faeq n danish

tyme umi masok keta blit, she had dis face, erm, muka nok like,

"wow! i cant believe that just happened!"

then, nya ceta la pa jd kos i asked her

conversation:

umi: cayak x?! tek ada org cina tok...

*lom sempat nya abis ckp*

me: laki ompuan? *ahax, gender is important ya know?^^*

umi: laki. nya tego umi bah. nya sroh umi nangga duit nya. tebal gyk yea!

me: bia bena?! umi knal nya?

umi: x..

*i potong-ed wat she wanted to say again*

me: woah. complete strangers la tok!

umi: nya sroh umi pegang duit nya gyk yea. umi mdhla ng nya, kacak nombor duit yea.

*mun x phm maksud num duit, ambik cgek duit ketas, then u find the numbers tepi2 cya*

: ada cgek yea nya show, suma nombo smilan, ada nombo ujong nya 4 igek 4. 5 pun ada

me: apakes nya ngeso kat umi ka. overexcited apa?

umi: nya mdh nya ngumpol duit yea. nombo nok kacak.

me: perlukah nya ngeso. x eran la org lam bank nangga?

umi: sapa x eran?! tang tetiba jak. nya ada brik no tpon gyk yea

*my mum showed me a piece of paper with 3 diff numbers*

me: stayel juak number tok. *nang kacak la*

umi: umi tanyak nya, nya yea hairstylist ka.

me: adaka...

umi: rambut nya kacak sera! p, nya mdh nya consultant. mok tauk keta nya, sng jak, asal keta number 5565 nya lh yea.

*sumting like dat the num, x ingat*

me thinking in my head: byk na juak umi dpt info dr a COMPLETE STRANGER. kakyea OUT OF NOWHERE. oh! thats where i got that skill!

*i dont mean to brag, but then, i have this invisible 'bond' with ppl i dun know.

mcm billah mdh bh, "kwu x ku lalek. muka tebal ada jak"*

well, i am myself. wysiwyg. mun x phm word tok. check dictionary.

it does exist!^^

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kakyea, otw blit umah..

conversation:

me: bh, slowlah lagyk mi.

umi: knak?

me: kmk mok drive juak

*p, kmkorg guna avanza tyme yea, i tot umi x swoh*

umi: danish, dok blakang.

me in my heart: yea!

danish: kakak drive? oh no!

me: oi, kakak x trok gney la

*me behind the wheels; tolka phrase tok? lamak dh x mukak buku eyy*

*.....driving.....*

it went smoothly, until tyme dkt cgek bumper tok

*we call bukit kechik yea bumper nak?*

laju bh, we sort of in the air for a moment.

conversation:

nenek: LAILAH HAILLALLAH!

danish: we're gonna die!

umi: heh! xleh ckp cmyea!

faeq: waaaa..

me: ilek bh, x salu

then tyme mok masok my simpang umah again, salah signal

kan, kat tepi stereng yea ada duak igek signal thing yea, my lorong blah kirek bh

jd, me salu lupak, signal blah kirek makey wiper

so, me salah signal,

the wiper was turned on, my mum cant stop laughing,

org nok tgh2 renovate umah sblah my umah was smirking,

some kids were laughing.

me in my head: ohhh, greatt, this thing happened again

*sblom tok ada jd juak, yes, dgn my mum oso, dkat cgek simpang of which my keta mesti mati d cya*

it was fun sampey la i was too fast, jd x masok lam my umah, i just went stret

umi dh ngeloh. huhu~

so i said:

me: kmk cuba reverse la k.

umi: ha, cuba masok kit lam umah org tok

*umh yb, kacak pagar. i wondered if i damaged it sumhow, how much will it cost*

*masok*

umi: okay, reverse kit

*reverse lebeyh gylak, mok masok lam parit asa*

umi: eyyy! udah gyk! TUKA!

that was how the day ended. huhuhu! best bh. it was my first to drive avanza tho.

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next episode, ada pics^^ *hope that i'll find the cable!*

sory.s.o.r.y.

2008-10-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

alahai... lamak dah x update tokk. okok. bukannya pa bh, lately na

k, boring gylerr! *xda pa nak dmdh* ntah apahal

mok mdh saya tok xda keja, x juak *betimbun ada jak!*

maybe kos cuti dah x la

mak gyk *wargh! exam!! DIE me* ingat

mok dok umahh jak

lately pun salu ponteng skul. ahax.

oiii, gua saket woii. hehehehe. cakap sal menatang nama EXAM

menyakitkan hati betol lah. menyusahkan ada jak.

bukak buku bio jak waktu tok *yeapun x paham2 gyk. adoyh2*

chemistry n +m3 nang sah fail udah. ntahla apahal ng chem lately.

makin lamak, makin x paham! bahaya eyy.

anyway, ada few pics mok show *ngeso^^* kepada semua^^

tyme toastmasters kat pustaka^^

tok plang tyme mkn2 d umah *tyme alai ke umah lah, nok len x payah engkah^^*

dis one, tyme kat eastwood. mkn2 petronas jemput

kata zyma

kpd fira, 'nok yealh umah i. raya gyk, dtg k'

dlm keta, dh sekda keja gyk bh. ahax.

this one plang, my fers pic makey cemin lam dis year. mahal wo pic tok!

*ya baruk kontrolll! xpa2, pakey tetak ktkorg juak^^*

selamat hari raya!

2008-09-28T19:04:00.000-07:00

wuah wuah wuah!! sik lamak gyk raya!

me sik lamak gyk mok berangkat ke mukah.

huuu~ my first raya there. biasanya i refuse to go bh. skali skala pegi sikpalah juakkan.

pi sayang lah dis raya, me cannot see HIM this year.

*sedeyhsedeyhsedeyh*

to everyone: selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin!

l.i.f.e

2008-09-27T07:02:00.000-07:00

lots of things going on with my life lately.

i think the world's moving too fast.

sometimes, we forgot something or someone, somewhat somehow.

for instance, today. becos we're going back to mukah, ayah told me to burn some songs.

i couldnt be happier to do so.

so, i double-clicked wmp. searching for songs.

one song caught my eyes. Westlife - You Raise Me Up. at first, i tot it was such an old song. when i think and think again, maybe it would be great to listen to the song on our way to mukah.

i scrolled to the right. mok nangga which folder the lagu bh.

when i saw the location of the song, i din even blink.

lagu yea lam folder zaid. life's too hectic, i almost forgotten about the two of you. i dont know why, i dont know how, i cried.

for God sake, when i checked your folder again zaid, there's this one folder full of songs, last songs you gave me. bukan yea jak, you named that folder, specially for me.

Dear God, tell me why? why did you take the two ppl who are so dearly to us. so kind, understanding, nice to talk to, caring, you name it, they had everything.

TELL ME WHY?

i vividly remember the last raya we had together. now, we arent celebrating it together anymore. Dear God, i know i must turn to You. but i need to talk to someone. someone who actually cared. someone who is actually there. someone who could make me feel comfortable.

Dear God, i know someday i would leave this world. and return to You. You and only You.

org slalu ckp, tok dugaan jak. stay strong.

if you were in our place, to lose someone yg kta nangga dr kol 6.30 pg sampey 1.30/2.10/3.30/4.30 ptg, 5 hari dalam seminggu, 6 hari dalam seminggu mun ada skolah ganti, someone yang slalu ada dgn kta, ketawa sama2, share secrets with, play with, be with, teman ke kantin, jalan ke ko-op, nantik sama2 di pondok, how would you feel?

if they left because of natural causes, maybe it wouldnt hurt so much. this is different.

you know kan, i pretended that the two of you tgh having a very long holidae. sometimes, mcm hal iptc yea, tyme i was chosen, my heart was searching for areef. i actually walked to our old block. with that stupid face searching for someone who's long gone.

thank goodness i realised everything before i actually asked someone if they saw you anywhere.

lately, i keep most things to myself.

the happy things, i'll share with people. people kol me emo. am i? im not sure.

p/s tho we are no longer together, the memories we shared, i would try my best, not to forget it. The yesterdays, the days we spent together, no one could take it away from us.

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They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that  we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never  know
They can take the places that we said we would go 
All the broken  dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have  yesterday.

l.e.l.a.h.

2008-09-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

kol 7.30pg : dah da di skul (mass exam)
kol 10.30pg : blit umh

bila sampey umah, tetido. ahax.

kol 12.3++tghari : bgn tido
kol 1.3++ptg : tetido blit
kol 2.1++ ptg : bgn tdo

yeap, i love to sleep
kol 3 ptg : trun tuition
kol 5 ptg : abis tuition

wpun oni 3 students (cluding me) mlayu, still the tuition was great.

kol 5.2++ptg : sampey impreal
kol 5.3++ptg : becarik baju ng jeans mok dibli (awg pau nyuroh k baju kurong g berbukak!)
pandey seyrah ng zyma mileh jeans eyhh, ngam lalu size.

kol 6++ ptg : gi otel (tmpt mkn otay!)
kol 6.3++ptg : berbukak!

saya mkn spaghetti carbonara + iced lemon tea. myra ng marsha lamb/chic chop, awg, zul, zyma, apid, seyrah ngoder spaghetti bolognese, fad fetuccini (i dunno how to spell!)

trdgr azan isya' - qada'

kol 7.5++mlm : di paxen, ilek d cb kakyea jln2
kol 8.3++mlm : ng ayh ng umi, cdak bli jeans (levi's, saba jak saya melihat) den ayh g hush puppies, bli kasut k nya keja. kacak juak lah

"sera dah bli kasut riya kan?" T_T

so far, yealah keja ritok.

kechik na pic tok. haihs. -.-"

gagagagagaga~

2008-09-18T05:25:00.000-07:00

ari tok tek, asa cam mok guna m-16 jak nembak suma org! yiiiiiiii!

suma salah hal iptc yea. arghhh!

dahla secara mengejutkan yesterday all groups were called to present in front of
A LOT of teachers and principal. i ran here and there searching for shafiqah.

mula2 lari ke kelas (dr bilit cekgu), sik jumpa, den lari ke suro cam org gila jak, sik jumpa.

last2 carik di library, baruk jumpa.

then, we lari gyk ke lab chem tunggah kinah ng aziz. billah ada student asrama nulong nunggah.

lelah lalu belari. takut lambat bh klak.

today, we were supposed dpt result sal iptc. then 'sumone' sik puas hati.

he wanted to represent. kos yesterday, he din show up.

then, i got over excited when one of the teacher praised our group.

i ran to class (i actually ran with ppl watching me), lelah shafiqah ngepong.

"billah! cekgu XY puji grup kta!" i screamed. yes, i sounded ngeso.

at first i din notice kos i was too heppi + excited + nervous at the same time.

then, well, i am me, i felt guilty. kos maybe ive made ppl around feel uneasy kh, apakh.

so, i tyme chem, me mintak maaf ng the 2 of them,
well, the other one is forgiving, that certain sumone, argh,
i hate looking at him. so snobbish.

tyme rehat, after they represent ng principal, alulah nya cakap besa!

sakit ati nenga eyyy!!

rasa cam mok baling ng batu, diikat guna
besi, engkah dibah kapal, karamkan kapal yea cam titanic!

kakyea, nang sekda mood lalu jak lam klas.

sampeylah tyme balit.

debar2 lalu jak asa eyyy, i dunno dr cney the sifat berani dtg.

i asked him a question.

a QUESTION.

his answer made my whole day happy times 10 again *smiles*

hehehehehehehe.

sampey nektok maseyh heppi!

i cant wipe this smile dr my muka. it is impossible, for now.

i kept on replaying everything in my head.

omg! youre so adorable! and i realise that you never asked me that kind of question.

*smile so wide, my cheeks hurt*

well, you see...

2008-09-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

bila masa...

bm class: i'll wonder off into an enchanted land beyond my own imagination. it would be a miracle if i actually concentrate in this class

est class: i'll make sure i dont speak any non-english word. if so, ive got to present a show and tell. i hate it whenever it is my turn to do show and tell. i hate whatever concerning talking in front of the class. arghhh!

klas bi: class tok ada okay kit if ckp bm. no show and tell. u just got to pay 10 cents for every word.

m3 class: ....

+m3 class: im loving it! my teacher chantekkkk. hehehehehehe. everytime she walks in, it is as though cam cosplay jak.

bio: aaaaaaaa? i dun remember when was the last tyme i was actually in class, you know, spritually.

chem: i need a MAP cos im LOST

physics: im starting to like dis subject. cos byk2 subject science, i think i concentrate most tyme phy.

p. Islam: hehehehehe. tyme menghafaz tok. susah kitlh. im such a forgetful person. terkantoi ng ustaz gyk ri marek. *tried to escape hafazan bh*

sejarah: klas plg sik ngantok!

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to-do-list:

1. edyt mag - dateline: monday, 15/09
2. exhibition- dateline: monday, 15/09
3. essay bm - dateline: *code red* it was 2 weeks ago
4. photo comp. - dateline: next month
5. peka chem - dateline: someday, next week
6. phy report - dateline: i hv no idea
7. study buku bssm - dateline: 22 sept asanya. i know lam bulan toklah exam

no 1 n 2 is bugging me. how am i supposed to do it without any fuss? mala jak laggggg. now masa ilek okaynya. *blogging jak okay. hehehehe* menguji kesabaran betol!

thank goodness dh cyapkan +m3 ng m3 d skul and billah and erlene nok molah folio bm. sej ada hw kah? sekda eyy. bio dah x tauk cney tuju yg dibrik cekgu. dahla tebal giler!

i really2 hope that after edyting magazine, dpt ilek2. gykpun, dah xplu ambik gamba2 gyk.

2.0 mol solution

2008-09-10T03:18:00.000-07:00

todayyy, first period was chemistry. last tyme i was so in love with this subject. makin ari, makin sket hati jak. haihs

ne ndak nya, byk giler bh dis KOH, HCl, CHOOOHstuff. 2mol of dis change into dis

dis is anion aa, cation aa, periodic table, "you aa, remember the elements, remember the properties. very important aa," mdm chem would say.

however, chem would be the best tyme experiment!

today we did this one experiment.

i was so fascinated, i din hati2. dh biasa bh, if kenak the solution, then just cuci tgn.

conversation:

me : argh! tgn ku kenak simbah solution! (HCL kh? KOH?)
shfqh : ci tgn jak bh.
me : okokok. (washing hands) eyhhh, pahal asa melekit ng gatal2 lalu tok?
*there was a 10 seconds ++ pause*
teacher : be careful aa with the solution.
me : why? (i sat in front)
teacher : because it is 2mol solution.
me + sum other ppl : huh?
teacher : it is very corrosive.
me : WHAT?!

then, first period after recess was english. it was our grup turn to present.

conversation:

me : teacher, because im powerpoint illiterate, my presentation is so simple.
teacher : i tot that ure good in adobe, it would be no problem for you for powerpoint.
me : im not active in powerpoint this year teacher. refused to do any presentation. hehehe..
*i went in front, so does my grup member, aot and he hu shud not be mentioned*
*flashed an evil grin*
me : (lets call he hu shud not be mention, hehu) hehu, u start.
hehu : *mdh pa yg dityped*

well, you see, im a lil mean when it comes to
ppl hu i feel annoys me. i let hehu read the whole,
very long synopsis of the short story.

then i let aot talk.

then i tell aot to stop as dah sampey part maca slide with isi nok panjang. hehehehehe.

i looked at everyone, kbykn ppl giggled. some cant stop smiling. *im so mean*

the last subject of the day was physics. we went to the lab again!

conversation:

me : great, just now quite corrosive solution. now, i think i'll lecur my tgn
*we were doing this experiment determine this sumting heat capacity*

shfqh : wahh, panas eyh udah aek tok.
me : nok menatang yea (well, u see, theres this thingy, nya panaskan the apparatus) mesti panas gyk
shfqh : dh limak menet tok.
me : yg kwu nangga ku apahal? kluakn lagyk menatang yea. ku mok nangga suhu nya.
shfqh : eyh, aok eyy.
me : *said the suhu*
teacher : dont touch *the name of that hot metal thingy* melecur nanti kang.
*i din hear, yes, i sat in front juak kali tok*
me : *curious face* ku asa dah sejok dh menda tok. *touch* WARGHHHH!
shfqh : yg kwu megang apahal?!
me : wuaaaa. sakit!
shfqh : betuah. tek chem. tok physics. saba jak ku.

yes, sumtimes im very curious. hehehehehe.

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on monday~~

sumting very interesting did happen today.

seriously. my class bisin gylak, it all started

when alais accidentally did sumting to the wall of the class...

tercetuslah cgek bunyi yg menggegarkan dindin. i din really notice at first.

"HOI!" i heard.

so, i turned around. nangga, dis one teacher manas2 lua klas kat tepi tingkap.

i don really recall what he said, pi, yg senantiasa di dalam ingatanlah when he said,

teacher: "sumting sumting bising"
: "takda cekgu ke dlm klas? patutlah result terok! sumting sumting monyet"
: "sumting sumting bahlul"
: "sumting sumting siapa yg sumting dinding"
alais : "saya tadi cekgu. sumting lalu sana. sumting sumting"
: "sory cekgu. tak sengaja cekgu"
teacher: "hish. knapa boleh sumting bising sumting sangat! hoish!"*face very grumpy*

in a nutshell, we kenak sumpah lah. huhuhu.

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noktok, my littlest brother. he's such a devil. seriously.
his nama is faeq fyrash ahmad dian bin rosli.

nama ayah ciput jak, namanya, 4 kerat eyyy..

nya tok, manjak giler, (anak bongsu lah katakan) and nya suka lalu diambik pics.

plg best feature that i like most about this brother of mine is the mata. my mata kechik bh. his is slightly bigger. hehehehehe.

umonya 4 years old. conversation yg slalu we, the elder ppl in the family ckp ng nya is

me: "faeq, g skul kay? klak nya ada frens. dpt maen2" skul best!"
faeq : "eyhh, iboh jak"
me: "klak faeq dh besa klak apa jadilah"
faeq: lu pikey lah sendiri!"

walau gney pun, nya tok jenis nok curiousity nya tinggi. mun mood nya okay, nya suka blaja. for example

me: "tok flower"
faeq: "apa flower?"
me: "flower yea bunga"
faeq: "apa bunga?"
me: "nok toklh bunga"
faeq: "bukanlah"
me: "oi, bunga tok"
faeq: "orkidlah!"
me: "eyyhhh~"

p/s i was showing him an orchid.

guilt

2008-09-06T02:31:00.000-07:00

i did sumting so bad, my guilt aint leaving me alone.

aiyi bh, im so sorry that i couldnt control my anger. ive never been so harsh to someone after fighting with alif in form 1. (seriously, i kept on shouting at him in front of the class, in front of miss enny + unstoppable tears + cursing; pi, sikla terok. plg trok pun me nganok org dolok bodo jak, yeapun dah kira trok)

kmk asa kmk ter-ada temporary insanity.

wahhhhhhhhhh. never i did sumting like dat to someone whom i respect. mun ng kwn2 ompuan yea laenlh. pi, asanya sekda i did such thing.

it was ur fault too! kesian bh naim that tyme. dahla bdn kechik, nya bwk gyk beg skul nok besar dr bdn nya, bwk gyk bag laptop, pasyea ada gyk cgek bag di tgn.

kmk tanyak jak for you to help him, i knew that u heard wat i said. the part which u just nangga pat laen, pissed me off.

wat did i do dat made me deserve this cold treatment from you? ive asked politely wat did i have done wrong.

and all you said is that you are tired.

you dont know how restless i am after pushing you. for god sake, you almost fell down.
mok terusuk ng meja cekgu jak upa.

im so so sorry.

how long gyk are you going to ignore me? padah la apahal, tok sik, so suddenly with the silence.

i kept on thinking wat one earth did i do wrong.

fyi, i cant read between the lines.

seriously.

im so sorry.

i wanted to say im sorry kat ktk, p, for sure you wouldnt want to listen. so, im posting this post for the whole world to know.

that im begging for forgiveness.

wuuhuuu~~

2008-09-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

today is the SECOND day of RAMADHAN! yeah, 28 more days to go mok raya!

im so excited whenever celebrating sumting.

pi, sedeyhla juak, dat dis raya, maybe sik raya di miri (NOOOOO!!!),
maybe ekot family ke mukah or stay di bintulu or g kuching.

I WANT TO STAY IN MIRI

haaaaaa~ last raya got a very important ppl came to my house. ahax. wonder hu? well, here's a hint, he's a guy. not an ordinary guy, a guy guy. yiii, he's important. Nuff said.

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last thursday, i slept at 5a.m. and woke up at 5.20. it was a skul day bh. haihs.

i slept for onli 20 mins. thank goodness my brain sik malfunctioned tyme d skul.

then last nite, i slept at 1.30++ a.m.

edyting the last year skul magazine.

lelah eyhh dis year. byk gylak involve.

let me list everything down:

1. edyting magazine last year (warghhhhh!)

2. photog this year (i went back home at 1 a.m. tyme dance competition. for god sake, 1 a.m! naseb parents sik bisin. mostly, this one made me so tired cos this one plg salu stay)

3. bssm (takat ahli biasa jak. however, i was there for the mass competition. not the real one, the one we have before the real one. and i came for both days. den ada dis thing, ambik sijil d hq. slaen yea, ada choir gyk. ada stay2 gyk yea. haihs. ada kawat gyk. apa gyk tok. haaa, ada exam gyk ujong bulan tok. apuuu nyak wai!)

4. class (i dun really carry on my duty as the class assistant, however, bila ada choir riya, i tried my best to stay back. stay back agyk! dahla clash ng choir bssm riya)

5. tuition (the last tyme ada tuition was when i was in primary 4. then sekda tuition. masok jak f4, i desperately mesti da tuition. however, +m3 jak)

sikpa2, taun tok jak involve lelalu. next year ilek, prepare for spm

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great, ure still giving me the silent treatment.

fine! skati ktk lah cya. im trying to be a good friend and if this is how you treat a friend, then, there is no use for me to be your friend and for you to be my friend

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p/s i have no idea what is my favourite colour

i read sarah's blog..

2008-08-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

tejumpa dis very interesting quiz and i gave it a try. tok results nya:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i took another and sumore test^^ (addicted)

Here is the analysis:
Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high. (walao eyyy)

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today was a very sad day

y? cos one of my good friend
sekda mood lelalu
today and yesterday

i dunno y i cared so much
maybe bcos hes such a good friend
a good friend yg slalunya senyum2
(wpun sipu2. hehe)

to see such seriousness
on his face,
muka yg masam,
semasam masam vinegar,
made me question myself

did i do sumting wrong?

ive asked him
wats up
and his answer aint helping

maybe im such a busybody
but ure my friend

i cant just let u all gloomy by urself
u need to cheer up
u told me so when i was down

remember?

well, theyre arent blood but theyre sumtin' sumtin'

2008-08-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

my last blog was about how much i love my cuzzies.

well, today, im going to talk about my kengkawan. yes, my friends.

nope, theyre not just friends, theyre like diamonds in the sky,
PRICELESS

this girl aint ordinary
cos, she is SARAH
my significant other! (me aint ordinary osolah. ahax)

we have so much in common, yet we arent that alike.

and guess wat, suma secara kebetolan. it started bila me tgh busy adding ppl on my msnmsgr list.

ME TER-aDD SARAH

I cant imagined gney my life if i didnt

anyone mungkin sama nama with her, upa sama, stuffs, but no one could replace sarah. cos SARAH is SARAH. sengan tok jak sal sarah. if type gyk, SIKKAN ABIS PUNYA!

ckit jak gyk lah, erm, we like always chat at msn. mun sik
sik sah! mustahel. and yes, im myself when im with her

she appreciates me like i appreciate her. i LOVE you. HUGS! she rocks my world! nuff said. p/s kmkorg sik penah bejumpa. iflah me masok tadika lok awal kit, maybe we jadi friends udah dr dolok.

yeah, u cant see his face.

betuahla mun dpt tangkap pic nya nangga dpn.

eyh, I DID!
tp, sayang, picture error. haihs.

intro: his nama is SYAFEEQ, sama tadika (sik tauklah dolok kmkorg ada betuto sik), den sama skolah menengah.

y is he categorised as one of those yg penting (cheywah, nya tok penting?) is bcos

he's different. laen dr yg laen. unic. different abis lah. susah mok carik org cam tok.

very clever. mok padah pendiam, dr jaoh nangla, if u get to know him,
u'll take back what u've said and thought.

p/s cdak ompuan f2 suka li ngaco nya tok. yish!

this was actually the last picture i took together with the 2 of them.

this guy here, he was a third-intake student

just like me. he came in rite after kmk. maseyh ingat gyk num pendaftaran nya. 167/2005 (mine's 166)

he was my bestguy friend. dolok kmkorg bertiga. we shared lots of things together. u

dont know how much i miss you, ur smile, ur laughter, ur voice.
i could still remember what youve told me before

u left me behind. u urself said that u'll be sad if u leave me back here. i know that u r now at the other side of the world. he is Mohd. Arif Abd. Rahman.

when im all alone, u were always there. when im so confused, u were always there. when i need a helping hand, u were always there

yang paling menakjubkan pasal this guy,
he's always there. when im down, he's always there. he truly understands.

he sikplu pun say a word, he just dudok jak
rite beside me. his company makes me feel complete.

he loves to play games, he was my wake up call, he was my sms buddy, he was my study buddy. i'm so sorry i said no when u asked me to go along.

if i could turn back time, i would never let you out of my sight. gosh, im not going to meet anyone just like you in the future.

you promised me zaid, uve promised.

i understand that we are apart now.
GOD loves you more than we do.

he is Zaid Mohd. Dzulkhairi Julaihi

Ku tauk, sebaek sahaja ko nangga gamba tok, mesti ko manas. Aoklah, byk2 gambar ko ku ada, apahal ku milih gamba tok. hehehehehe. skati akulah! ahax. suka ku bh, molah ko manas^^

Nya tok, namanya SHAFIQAH. she sits besides me lam klas. ketua kelas you! eherm, sapakan penolong? (ngegeyh). i cant keep any secrets from her and sarah. mustahel sungguh ituuu~

The funniest thing sal this girl is that: Nya tok kuat melatah!

salute lah tyme posa ganti riya. sik latah2 nya eyy.
bangga ku sbg seorang kawan!

nya tok alimmm~ kawan yg pemaaf. pi, mun nya marah, marah lelalu, baruk tekeluar perkataan2 yg amat menakjubkan.

pi, sikla hebat gney punnn.

this is Luqman Hakim. miss kath ng ppl lam klas (except afeeq) tunggah nya luqman (skemanyer~)

i call him AKEEM

huhuhu~ dis guy kan, very cute bila nya sik k cemin mata.
the mata very big and bright!
puteh nya tok, pi sayang juak, ada pimples. ahax.

mcmlh myself dont have (pi sik ketara wooot!). nya tokk, romantic.

and yes, he is quiet juak. eleh, pi, mun part ngatik, nya lah pemenangnya.

will only ANSWER my calls bila theres NO ONE
di umah

i love his company. he's not always there.
but sumhow sumwhat he's there.

yea, i know. i dont really understand what im saying juak. (bdn nya kechik, p, ada org minat tokk)

this pretty girl

namanya AMALINA. nama panjang gylak, dipendekkan jadi mal.

very outspoken. if she doesnt like you,
she'll tell you she doesnt.

nya tok, very putehhhh. melepak eyyhh.
kalah kaler dindin asa.

sekdalah. guro jak. umah nya sik jaoh.

cakap sal umah, umah akeem dkat gyk, selorong weiyh!

sah mal bisin kaktok mun nya check blog tok. kira bagus dah kmk tok mal, engkah pic tok. mun kmk engkah pic ktk kmk ambik time tuition yea, haa, baruk tauk. ahax.

best kawan ng nya tok!

this is CLINTON. buah hati saya ini.
bukan gerek. kawan rapat.

nya tok, ntahla gney mok mdh, nya baet lelalu. gentleman woo.
angan2lh nyimpan rasia dr aku, tup2, aku juak antara yang pertama tauk.

this guy, very caliyy. sense of humour nya natural pun.
masalah yg sama ng akeem tek, PIMPLES.

dah ku nyuroh guna oxy, sik maok, mdh sik lalek.

lari ompuan nangga ko klak. GURO ku jak. byk peminat nya tok wooo.

wahhhhhhh! look hus here! MARELYN TELUN DANIEL.

"tek-i! apahal ko engkah nama penoh ku?!
Tweeng~"

mesti ko madah gya kan.

sukahati akulah. aku yg berkuasa
disini. no one could stop me mae!!

not even may. *aksi tangan may*

this girl, very busy. go here and there. LEO la pun pasal. she's a photog oso.

busy gney pun kan, result nya memang bgus. maintain jak.

upa jak innocent. nanggalah pic nya yea. gaok li jak. hehehehe.

oh yea may, me still dunno how to link you in my blog (just in case ure reading), cos i cant find the customize button!

eyy, ada limit ka utk pics?
aiyi! ada gyk me mok madah bh. pi, okay la juak tok.
important ppl.

not in picture:
atiq
aot
liyana
meera
achet

i love my cuzzies!

2008-08-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

ahahahax! we cant see alai clearly here >.<

from left: nurul, me!, alai, mira^^

i went to PARKSON today! with my cuzzies (alai, nurul, mira, denden, reza).

i love them to BITS..

i never had so much fun.
blood will always be thicker than water.
however, ur always considered as blood SARAH.

yess, it was such a long queue!
den, we went to mcD. and walk2 here and there.
seriously, it was such a fun day.
oh yea, we saw MIRROR. it was such a SCARY movie!

and we did crazy things i never did before^^ LOVE xoxo u guys^^

just tell me why

2008-08-19T06:47:00.001-07:00

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